1. |
Intro (DATHOS)
01:09
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DESPONDENCY AT THE HANDS OF SELF
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2. |
Creatures Of Habit
02:53
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ISOLATION IS A MUST
REFUSE TO SHARE MY PAIN
I CAN’T BEAR TO WATCH YOU RUST
AFTER YOUR WARMTH IM SURE TO DRAIN
TRIED TO OUTSMART MY PAIN
TAKE ITS PLACE
WASH AWAY MY SORROW I’M NOW SANE
FROM THE SIGHT OF YOUR FACE
DOESN’T WORK LIKE THAT
NOW I’M PAYING FOR IT
MY SUFFERING MULTIPLIED
ANOTHER SHORTCOMING EXEMPLIFIED
SO CLOSE TO THAT OLD FEELING
EVERY SECOND OF IT IM NOW KILLING
ANOTHER MEMORY IM WORKING TO NUMB
ALIVE NO MORE BLEAK THOUGHTS I’VE SUCCUMB
ALL I’VE GOT TO OFFER IS MY MISERY
SO EMBRACE ME FOR EVERY DEFECT
YOU’RE RIGHT TO REJECT
HOPE’S LYING FACE
IN DISMAY BLESS ME WITH INJURY
NOW IN ISOLATION
MY CLOSE FRIEND
FRAIL CREATION
I START TO FUCKING BEND
ONE DAY CLOSER TO DEATH
IF MY EMPTINESS DOESN’T LET UP
THEN BY MY OWN TWO HANDS
I PUT AN END TO MY BREATH
CREATURES OF HABIT
FROM LOVE’S DECEIT AWAY I DRIFT
SHOULD’VE KNOWN I’D BUILD MY WALLS
SHOULD’VE KNOWN YOU’D GROW TIRED
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3. |
Forced Contract
03:44
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NEVER HAD ENOUGH FAITH
MAYBE NEVER PRAYED HARD ENOUGH
FOR YEARS STUCK IN THIS HOLE DISGRACED
DIG DEEPER MY HAPPINESS ERASED
PASSING DAYS ARE DULL I’M IN DISGUST
MYSELF I CANNOT TRUST
PRESSURE FROM THESE THOUGHTS
MY MIND STARTS TO ROT
SELF HARM GIVES WAYS
TO A QUICK RELEASE
ON MY WORST DAYS
YOU WATCHED AS I FAILED TO RID MYSELF OF THIS DISEASE
COVER YOUR EYES AND SPREAD YOUR LIES
MISERY, A FORCED CONTRACT WITH LIFE
WITH OR WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE
LOVE, YOU’VE WITNESSED MY FAILURES MY STRIFE
BASK IN YOUR COMFORT YOUR FACE YOU HIDE
PASSING DAYS ARE DULL I’M IN DISGUST
MYSELF I CANNOT TRUST
PRESSURE FROM THESE THOUGHTS
MY MIND STARTS TO ROT
HAVE YOU BEEN ON THE RUN
OR JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK
HUMANITIES SUFFERING HAS SURPASSED THE SUN
NO EXCUSE NO VERSE TO WASH AWAY THE GUILT
YOUR DONE
(ELI)
IM STILL BEEFING WITH GOD
PLAIN AND SIMPLE HES A FUCKING FRAUD
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS
YOUR STILL A THORN ON MY SIDE
NO MORE WASTED TEARS
MY STRENGTH I FIND
IN SOLITUDES CONFINES
YOUR CLAIMS LET THEM BE TRUE
ILL BURN SO BE IT
YOUR CREDIBILITY IS LONG OVERDUE
I REFUSE TO SUBMIT
CALL IT PRIDE
CALL IT RAGE
CALL IT CONTEMPT
I ACCEPT IT ALL
MY SHAME IS RESERVED FOR THE PAIN I’VE CAUSED HER
NEVER FOR MY “SINS”
FOR IT’S YOU WHO CAUSED THIS
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4. |
Regain Control
02:11
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I’VE BEEN WASTING TIME
BUILDING UP ON MY DIME
THIS RACE TO THE TOP
THERE IS NO END
MISTAKES NONSTOP
YOUR HOURS YOU EXTEND
FOR WHAT CAUSE
ANOTHER MAN’S APPLAUSE?
WAIT A FEW WEEKS
THEY’VE GROWN TIRED
IT’S PROFIT HE SEEKS
FOR HIS MISTAKES YOU MUST PAY
YOU’VE BEEN WIRED.
THEN COMES THE ABUSE
YOU’VE GOT TO SURVIVE
THE EXCUSE
THE WEEKS STACK UP
VIOLENT THOUGHTS
YOUR DAY THEY INTERRUPT
THE SIGHT OF THE MAN
CLOSER TO ERUPT
THE SIGHT OF THE MAN
HIS HAPPINESS I WISH TO DEDUCT
SMILES AND LAUGHTER
BUT HEAVY CLOUDS RULE MY SURROUNDING
I HAVE FAILED TO OBTAIN ALL THAT I’M AFTER
MY PAIN FORCE FED YOU’LL BE SUFFOCATING
I MUST REGAIN CONTROL
SUFFER FOR ME ALONE
GIVE UP THE ROLE
MY ONLY GOAL
AUTHORITY OVERTHROWN
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5. |
Old Roads
03:56
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SO WHERE THE FUCK DID I GO WRONG
I RESORT TO ANOTHER SAD SONG
PAGES FILLED WITH REGRET
WHAT I RUINED I WON’T FORGET
I RETAIN THE CROWN
FOR I REIGN OVER MAKING MYSELF FEEL SO LOW
MY SPIRITS I WILL DROWN
AND THE CONSEQUENCE OF HOPING I WILL KNOW
SUFFER
YOUR ATTENTION
INTRODUCE PHASES OF CONTENTMENT
DISRUPT A LIFE OF TENSION
SLOWLY BUILDING BACK WHAT I THOUGHT WAS LOST FOREVER
ATTACHED MYSELF TO YOU
IT'S WHAT I DO
SHOULD’VE KNOWN BETTER THAN TO BETRAY THE SHADOWS
MY NAME
SELF DOUBT ECHOES
KEEP ME GROUNDED
I BELONG TO THIS
HOPE IT CLOUDS YOUR VISION
THOUGHT I STOOD A CHANCE AGAINST MY OWN OPPOSITION
HISTORY WILL ALWAYS REPEAT ITSELF
AND JUST LIKE THAT YOU’RE NO MORE AND I’M BY MYSELF
IM HEADED DOWN THAT OLD PATH ONCE MORE
TRADE IN SLEEP FOR A NIGHT OF MENTAL STRAIN
MY DESPERATION I CANNOT CONTAIN
(SQUEAL RIFF BUT BREAKDOWN)
THE DAYS FOLLOW
REPEAT.
CONTEMPLATION.
I AM LEFT HOLLOW
DEFEAT
IT’S ALL THAT’S LEFT
IN SECLUSION IT’S MYSELF I DETEST
YOU’RE ONE I WONT FORGET
PIERCE MY MIND
WITH REGRET IM FOREVER IN DEBT
DEFEAT
IT’S ALL THAT’S LEFT
IN SECLUSION IT’S MYSELF I DETEST
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6. |
Enemy
01:40
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THE MIND
MANKIND’S GREATEST ENEMY
NO SUCH THING AS A FUCKING REMEDY
ONLY PERIODS OF NOTHINGNESS
AND A LOST COUNT FOR FAILED ATTEMPTS
TO REACH THE END
A DRIVE THROUGH THE NIGHT
MIND PREOCCUPIED
DESIRE BURNS THROUGH THE SELF
I REGRESS
BACK TO A LESSER SELF
REMINDER OF ALL THATS OUT OF REACH
NEVER A DAY WITHOUT
IM BEAT
I’D LIKE TO PUT AN END TO THIS FALL
HEAD ON COLLISION INTO THE WALL
SEEMS LIKE EVERYDAY
ANOTHER FEAR REARS ITS UGLY FACE
ALL EFFORTS GONE TO WASTE
FURTHER NOW FROM A STATE OF PEACE
I SINK DEEPER WITH NO SUBSTANTIAL RELEASE
NO CHANGE IN THE DAYS
SEARCHING FOR ANSWERS
MY STEPS I RETRACE
HOW DID I COME TO HATE WHAT STARES BACK AT ME
PEN TO PAPER
A COLLECTION OF LIGHTLESS THOUGHTS SET FREE
EXPLAIN TO ME CREATOR
SILENCE
THERE IS NONE
THE TIMES FOUGHT
THE TIMES LOST
I AGAINST I
UNTIL THE END OF TIME
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7. |
Aggressor
03:19
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BURIED SECRET
MAINTAIN BREAK DOWN
LOW POINTS FREQUENT
WITHHOLD I DROWN
YOUR EYES
TEARS OF DISAPPOINTMENT
EMPTY SKIES
ABSENT IS GOD'S ATONEMENT
YOU’VE DONE WHAT YOU CAN
BUT I RENOUNCE THAT WHICH DOESN’T SHARE PAIN OF MAN
I’M SORRY TO BURDEN YOU
IF ONLY I KNEW
SOMETIMES THE ACHE WILL SPILL
FOR THE VOID I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO FUCKING FILL
GODS “LOVE” IS NO MATCH FOR MY SORROW
WHAT YOU PUSHED FAILED LONG AGO
NEVER FELT HIS LIGHT ON THIS SIDE
WHEN IT POURS HE’LL HIDE
SUBMERGED IN SIN
FORGET THE HURT FROM LONELINESS WITHIN
YOU’VE DONE WHAT YOU CAN
BUT I RENOUNCE THAT WHICH DOESN’T SHARE PAIN OF MAN
I’M SORRY TO BURDEN YOU
IF ONLY I KNEW
SOMETIMES THE ACHE WILL SPILL
FOR THE VOID I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO FUCKING FILL
GODS “LOVE” IS NO MATCH FOR MY SORROW
WHAT YOU PUSHED FAILED LONG AGO
NEVER FELT HIS LIGHT ON THIS SIDE
WHEN IT POURS HE’LL HIDE
MY LOVE FOR YOU IS ETERNAL
OPEN ARMS OPEN EARS SOAK UP MY SUFFERING
MATERNAL
MY HATRED FOR YOU IS FOREVER
FALSE HOPE MY BACK IS TURNED
IN MY WORLD YOU’RE THE AGRESSOR
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8. |
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EYES WIDE
QUESTION LIFE'S WORTH
BRING FORTH THE STING OF REALITY
PACING
AT THE EDGE OF MY SANITY
23, CAGED
MY THOUGHTS STILL CONTROL ME
A DECADE OF DOWNHILL
ANOTHER YEAR AND EVERYTHING REMAINS STILL
SEEMS I’VE TRIED EVERYTHING
EXCEPT GRAB A HOLD OF THE REIGNS MENTALLY
I REMAIN NOTHING
PROGRESS
WE DEVOUR THE LIES
YET DEEP DOWN
OURSELVES WE DESPISE
EVERY WEAKNESS WE THOUGHT TO HAVE ERASED
HAS SURFACED
BEGIN TO CAVE IN
CONDITIONS WORSEN
THE ACHE IN DISAPPOINTMENT
YOU WIN
DISDAIN FOR BODY
DISDAIN FOR MIND
SEARCHING FOR STRENGTH
AT WHAT LENGTH
LIVING
CONSTANTLY SLIPPING
INSIDE WE STARVE FOR THE STRENGTH TO DRAIN LIFE ITSELF
COULDN’T FIND PEACE ON EARTH
TAKE YOUR CHANCES BENEATH THE DIRT
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9. |
State of Dejection
04:08
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LONELINESS
PREY ON THE MIND SINCE MY YOUTH
INNOCENCE
DESTROYED BY THE HANDS OF MY TRUTH
BITTER TASTE OF
REJECTION
SO QUICK TO GIVE IN
MY STATE OF
DEJECTION
IS WEARING ME THIN
DESPERATION
A NEED TO BE FREE
WAS I EVER
WILL I EVER
TIRED OF COLLECTING DEBRIS
ERASE MY DEPENDENCE
I PLEA
SAME OLD SHIT
LIFE I QUIT
I ALWAYS RETURN
EYES ROLLED BACK
I WONT SEE TOMORROW
IT’S ALL I YEARN
NON EXISTENT I BECOME
I CRAVE THE OUTCOME
BE REAL
SOME LIVES ARE BETTER OFF IN THE GROUND
HEARTS UNSOUND
NOTHING LEFT TO HIDE
EVERY OUNCE OF FAILURE CRUSHING ME
SHATTERED STANCE I ABIDE
PAIN WILL FALL IN RATE
CYCLE WILL REPEAT
EMPTINESS
BACK IN MY NATURAL STATE
ANOTHER DOSE OF DEFEAT
9 PIECE CONFESSION
IT ALL MEANT NOTHING
CUS I’M STILL IN DESCENSION
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10. |
Outro
01:51
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